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4/9/07 09:47 pm

Yo, one more month of college. crazy. I got back from easter break and I missed it here. I told matt I loved him today, crazy..

8/6/06 12:51 am

Are you real?
Are you real or just a dream?
It's been so long, I don't know.
I can feel. I can feel you with me now.
Even though you're far away.

Some are special.
They come back, racing through your mind.
You were special.
Your light, your heat
Will never die.

I was lost.
I was lost and I found you.
I will know no further love.
People move.
Come in close and fall away,
Love, you refuse to fade.

Some are special.
They come back, racing through your mind.
You were special.
Your light, your heat
Will never die.
So regretful, how could I ever be so blind.
You were special.
I thought I'd never lose my mind.

I was pulling far away.
You were begging me to stay.
And I thought I was losing you.
Funny, how the opposite was true.

Some are special.
They come back, racing through your mind.
You were special.
Your light, your heat
Will never die.
So regretful, how could I ever be so blind.
You were special.
I thought I'd never lose my mind.

7/3/06 12:50 pm

read this, its kidna good.

 

 don't want to come back here, to this place.
It's a cold that only comes from blaming yourself for two decades wasted.
And I don't want to come back here, to this place.
When it all just repeats in my head again, and I cannot stop it.

And the glass in the trees, and all you left here,
Reflects everything that I missed.

And the pavement is still warm from the tires.
I can still feel the fright that the night brings.
Every song that you'd sing.
And I won't ever come back here to this place.
All I ever do is picture you smiling, and then picture you leaving.

And the glass in the trees, and all you left here,
Reflects everything that I missed.

Slow down.

I'll try and make it up to you.

They've cut down the trees to try to forget you.
But I took a vow to never forget you.
If you're still here, then we're waiting.

We'll wait for you to come back home to the broken little foes.
Until the guilt grows and grows.
When the time that's wasted comes back to haunt me.
And I'll deserve every bit. because I'm not spiritual yet.
I'm just reading the lines they gave me from the pulpit.
And it's not fading off, we remember the years.
As we sift through the laughter to find all the tears.
And I'm not worthy of grievance, I did nothing to prevent this.
And standing at your grave, I could have caused this.

6/23/06 10:56 pm

This is an amazing song.. 

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground
I'm hearin' what you say but I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me then you go and cut me down
But wait
You tell me that you're sorry didn't think I'd turn around and say:

That it's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
I need you like a heart needs a beat, it's nothing new
Yeah
I loved you with a fire red now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry lord, the angel heaven let me think was you
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize
Too late
Said it's too late to apologize
Too late

I'm holding on a rope
Got me 10 feet off the ground

5/22/06 07:00 pm - GEORGETOWN! yea... baby.

 
You Know You Go To Georgetown If...
Type:
Just for Fun - Inside Jokes
Description:
-You actually know what a Hoya is
-You just might kill the next person who asks you what a Hoya is
-You beat up a 5 year old who cut you in line for cotton candy on Georgetown Day
-You've looked up from your beer while on the rooftops on a Saturday, then laughed at that kid reading in Lauinger's
-You've looked up from your work and silently cursed that kid drinking beer on the rooftops
-You constantly complain about Leo's, but will gladly wait in line every Thursday for chicken fingers
-You either have no idea where Yates is, or are there every day
-You have Wisey's, Domino's and Quick Pita programmed into your phone
-Senior year, you have an AA sponsor before you have a job offer
-You're on a first name basis with John, the Wisey's Bum
-You've gone to 2nd floor Lauinger just to hang out
-You get a warm fuzzy feeling that you're back home when you see the Dixie Liquor sign
-You were an OA/move-in aid just so you could have 5 extra days to party before classes
-You know how long it's been since last we met
-You've almost killed yourself trying not to step on the seal
-You've debated politics in between keg stands
-You've commented about how much you like [insert restaurant/hotel chain, country, etc here], and someone in the group says "Yeah, my family owns that"
-You've come home drunk really late, and your nursing major roommate is just getting up for clinical
-You signed up for GAAP to get prospective students drunk
-Your pneumonia might've had something to do with a fountain
-You're a member of Hoya Blue because you always knew we'd have a great basketball team again (or you just like getting drunk on Tuesdays...)
-You or your friend "only smoke when you're drunk" (which is 3-4 nights a week)
-You've bruised your knees chalking Red Square
-You've spent your last 3 bucks on the best slice of Philly pizza ever
-Your favorite holiday is Halloween
-You've had to squint and close one eye to read the refusal of treatment to a GERM
-You've sat in John Carrol's lap and told him what you want for Christmas
-Any time someone from out of town comes to visit, you go to the Tombs
-You still have no idea how Lauinger's looks like Healy
-You can't wait for spring so you can hang out on "Healy Beach"
-Whether or not you admit it, you love popping your collar
-You've justified eating a Chicken Madness because it has the four major food groups
-You've heard about, but have never been to, the Starbucks in Leavy
-You've sat in a giant green lawn chair
-Your Jesuit professor can drink you under the table
-You've ever spent a lifetime crossing the Key Bridge
-You refuse to believe that your beloved Chipotle burrito has over 1000 calories
-Even though you point them out to anyone who comes to visit, you'd rather walk 3 blocks out of your way than climb the Exorcist stairs
-You look down on GW students and their low SAT scores (but go to their parties anyway)
-You signed up for every single club at SAC fair frosh year, and then ran out of space on your email account
-You've flashed East/West Side gang signs across the Village C Patio
-Daedalus is like an addiction you're tyring to kick; each time you go, you swear it'll be your last
-While wasted/on a walk of shame, you've had the most difficult conversation ever when you got in the elevator with the chaplain-in-residence
-Beirut is not a place, or even a game, but a way of life
-You gave up Natty/Beast for Lent
-Yes, the wait is worth the GUGS burger
-You've walked through a wedding reception in Dahlgren wearing sweatpants and a dirty T-shirt
-You can't decide which you hate more - Housing or OIP
-You were so wasted at Homecoming you rooted for the wrong team
-Your favorite day of the year is Free Scoop Day at Ben & Jerry's
-You play that 6 degrees of Kevin Bacon game to connect yourself to Pierce Bush, Pat Ewing, and the Prince of Jordan
-An internship on the Hill/in the White House is so freshman year
-You took out an extra loan to cover your M Street expenses
-All your friends are from Jersey
-You have a fake, but only use it at Towne
or
-You're actually 21 and can finally go to Dixie/Wagner's
-Your school will sell you cigarettes, but you have to walk 6 blocks to CVS for condoms
-You've seen Jack the Bulldog walking his Jesuit
-You call GERMS when you're sick (or just to have another witness to how many times your roommate puked that night)
-You "cook" at Leo's (breakfast sandwiches, M+M waffles, pasta with chicken in a creamy tomato sauce, etc)
-You've left the Tombs shitfaced, and instead of going back downstairs, you relieved yourself in the garbage alcove across the street
-You tell time by the chiming of the Healy clock tower bells
-The crowd at the football game consists of you and fifteen friends
-You need to go to VA to get anywhere in DC
-You hate the incoming freshmen who have 10 times more facebook friends than you before they even get to campus
-You get offended when you have to pay for admission to a museum
-During finals week, you keep track of how long you've been in the lib by the number of empty Awakenings on your desk
-You'll wait hours in line to get tickets for Rangila or hear Colin Powell speak, but have never been to a Hoya football game
-You graduated before facebook, and sweat all the young facebook stalkers
-Your stilletos get stuck in the rooftop grate or in between cobblestones every 10 minutes... but you still wear them every night
-The guys at Dixie ask if you're feeling better if you didn't stock up the previous weekend
-You've turned around in line at the caf and been eye level with Roy's waist
-Both Fred Barnes and Condoleeza Rice give shout outs to your basketball team
-You wear $70 polo shirts with $10 sweatpants on a regular basis
-You've gotten in a fist fight in the caf over who's nicer: Rapai or Altagracia
-You sneak Wisey's into the library, even though there's a coffee shop downstairs
-Jack gets all the "bitches"
-You were perpetually confused when Ripai's nametag changed to say "Umberto". Upon further inspection you find that Ripai is actually his MIDDLE name
-You actually understood all of the random Hilltop references in Georgetown Forever
-You constantly check this list even if you don't actually go to Georgetown this semester
-You've gone to parties or lived there for years, but still don't know if Burleith is pronounced with a 'th,' 'f' or some combination of the two
-You noticed whether or not your/you're was used correctly in this list
-You spend a bit too much time on the facebook

5/21/06 11:12 pm

"Athletes are not people who just go out on a field and play a sport, theres more to it. Athletes are the ones running at the crack of dawn, are lifting weights when others are sleeping, practicing when their friends are partying, , athletes are the ones dieting all the time to keep in shape when other are out buying doughnuts, athletes are the ones sweating, through pain and anguish improving their skills. Bottom line, real athletes aren't born... they're MADE."

5/20/06 07:41 pm

It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey

I found telling you the truth the hardest thing to get out
I know it wasn't you that made me feel this way
Will it ever change
Or are we stuck here on our own.

And give it one more try
I don't know if I would stay
I feel so much better now
And baby begging me
Will leave you so empty inside
So you shouldn't even try

I know every last regret inside of me is my own
The way I hold them close has made me be this way
I will never change
I know I'm stuck here on my own, my own

Given one more try
I don't know if I would stay
I feel so much better now
Where did we go wrong
I know you still hold on to me
But it's time that you let go
I gave you things I had
That I could not get back again
But I'm better off alone

Chorus
It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey
It's all gone grey

5/12/06 10:57 pm - Plain White T's

What If Lyrics


What if nobody likes me
what if I don't succeed
What if I give it all that I've got
and I still don't got what they need
What if I don't get anywhere at all
Will I consider myself a failure
will I be that small

What if she doesn't like me
what if I'm not her type
What if all the girls that ever like me
Are not the kind of girls that I like
What if I meet the right one and screw it up
Will I consider myself a failure
will I give up

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

What if they don't like me
What if they think I'm a joke
What if they act nice to my face
But they hate me and I don't even know
What if they end up stabbing me in the back
Will I consider myself a failure or will I fight back

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

What if nobody likes me
What if I don’t succeed
What if I give it all that I got
and its not good enough til I bleed
What if I don’t get anywhere at all
Would I consider myself a failure
will I be that small
NO

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

I'm gonna keep trying
getting denied just makes me want it more
I'll keep trying and each time push harder than before
I can't live my life always worried about what if
'Cause what if I die tomorrow
Then I never even lived

4/27/06 10:20 pm

So i am here to tell everyone sam is the most amazing girl that i have ever met. smart, beautiful, and she has the most amazing personality. i just want to let her and everyone else know how much i love her and how much she means to me...i love you baby :) i definately owe you a trip to six flags and a night out clubbing though :) thank you for always being there for me when i need you and just know that that means a lot to me :) well i could go on for quite some time but i will save that for another entry :)

Love,
Stephen

4/27/06 09:37 pm

Reminds me of somethings

got this new head filled up with smoke
i've got my veins all tangled close
to the jukebox bars you frequent
the safest place to hide
long nights "spent" with your most obvious weaknesses
you start shaking at the thought
you are everything i want
cause you are everything i'm not


we lay, we lay together
just not, too close, too close

(how close is close enough?)
we lay, we lay together
just not too close, too close

i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you said
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way

my inarticulate store bought hangover hobby kit
it talks it says, "you are, you are so cool"
scissor shaped, across the bed
you are red, violent red
you hollow out my hungry eyes
you hollow out my hungry eyes

we lay, we lay together
just not too close, too close
(how close is close enough?)
we lay, we lay together
just not too close, too close

i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you said
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way
i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you said
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way

we're gonna make damn sure
that you can't ever leave me
no you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far from me
i'll make damn sure
that you can't ever leave
no you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far from me
you won't ever get too far

i just want to break you down so badly
well i trip over everything you said
i just want to break you down so badly
in the worst way (worst way)

i'm going to make damn sure
i just want to bring you down so badly
i'm going to make damn sure
i just want to bring you down so badly
in the worst way, worst way...


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